My Great Provider

There's this song I sing quite a bit kinda just to myself, just cause I love it.

And the opening lines are 'I have decided, I have resolved, To wait upon You Lord.'

And the more I live, the more I live my life with Him, the more I realise that this is a key element to relationship with God.

And today it just hit me again. Because God just stepped up once again and provided for me beyond my expectations, and when I looked back on the past month and a half I realised that God had just wanted me to wait.

The summer here hasn't been so easy for me. I mean I haven't been depressed, and it's been good in that I've really settled in, and have come to love the family I work for etc.

But I was lonely. And I did have a little too much time to myself. And when that happens I tend to think a LOT. Probably too much. And today I realised that Satan had really got into my thoughts. And I'm not going to go into detail, but by the time I realised it-my mind was pretty messy. Not quite mad, but getting there :P

But when I realised that I was just meant to be WAITING it all seemed to make much more sense haha

And anyway, back to today. Today Curtis and I went to the church I've been trying to get to in Canterbury for quite some time. And honestly, setting out for it I (and maybe both of us) was rather sceptical. I just was not sure if it was the kind of church I wanted to get involved in.

So I entered on the offensive, ready to judge the crap out of this church and all it stands for. But I was wrong. So wrong. Obviously I was wrong for going in on the offensive in the first place (not my place to judge etc etc-but those of you who know me well would understand that I wasnt being entirely unreasonable given past experiences). But I was wrong to think that there are no nice people in England. Au contraire mon chéri! In fact I met some of the nicest people today. People came and talked to me! Not exciting?? WRONG!!! In England people dont talk to new people. It's practically a law haha

I had a hug today! Not a big deal? WRONG!! I've hardly had any decent hugs here. Really. 'No touchies' is another unsaid law.

And an English male talked to me about his issues with thrush. Out of context it sounds odd, even disgusting. But in context it was funny! And I miss funny!

hahaha

But seriously-I immediately felt at home in this church. Worship was fantastic and I was drinking in the Holy Spirit like (insert analogy about something really thirsty), and the word was exactly what I needed to hear.

God provided for needs I didnt even realise I had today.

And so I'll just add another thing on the 'Things I am Grateful For, God' list. :D

On Another note, here are some pictures of things I am totally digging at the mo:

Clove Bud Oil-What a life saver! I have THE worst timed tooth ache in the world, and so this stuff does a good ol' job of masking le pain!

I know I've already raved heaps but (:D) MY NEW CHURCH!!!

At first I hated it, now I love it. The Office in all it's awkwardness and political-incorrectness has caught me hook, line and sinker.

And finally, Indian Takeaway leftovers. It's SO good at 9pm that I dont even care that I cant figure out what it is I'm eating hahaha

Oh and my new jumper. Ugly? A bit. Comfortable? HELLZ TO THE YE-AH!

So much love-GOD BLESS!!

xxxx

Oooh Er

I have realised I am a little horrified by the idea of having children now...

Soz Mum!

So keen for tomorrow-Curtis is back and we're hitting up the Tickled Trout-aw yeah!

Also so keen for a white choc and peanut cookie.

Nom nom nom

Also a bit bored.

Laura Marling. So. Excited.

I hear little footsies coming up my stairs. Best be off darlings

Love from me xxx

AW YEAH

So I was just browsing band sites to see if there were any cheap shows worth buying tickets for to add to the plethora of amazing music I already get to see this year.

I was on Laura Marling's website (I absolutely LURRRVE Laura Marling!), and I saw she was playing a show on the 2nd of December, and I was thinking 'POO' because I already had bought tickets to see Vampire Weekend that night.

And then it hit me. The wonderful words that followed.

"(Supporting Vampire Weekend)"

I pretty much had a fit.

God is SO looking out for me.

He is giving me so many things to look forward to!!

Foals

Born Ruffians

Vampire Weekend

aaaannnnnnddddd

LAURA MARLING

woo woo woo woo woo woo woo

haha i dont even care how lame this blog is.

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!

so. ex.cite.d. so. ex.cite.d. so. ex.cite.d. so. ex.cite.d. so. ex.cite.d. so. ex.cite.d.

(full stops are to stress my serious ex.cite.ment :D )

Thank You Lord God! You are an almighty God who provides-a God who cares about the small things (eg. bands i love!) !

lots of love my darlings xxxx

I'm SO excited

So I'm pretty excited.

Excited because I get to sleep in tomorrow morning.

Excited because God provides-ALWAYS!

Excited because today I bought my ticket to see Born Ruffians-meaning I will be seeing my 3 favourite bands within one month of each other.

Excited because in nearly 42 days Melanie Joy Barker will be joining me in this country to do our trip we've been planning for SO long!

Excited because I am able to do more and more planning for travels (Scotland over New Years, Greece and Prague in February/March, England with Mum, Holly n Soph in May etc)

Excited because I finally have internet in my room

Excited because God is so good

Excited because I made my first ever pie today (blackberry-hardly any leakage)

And excited cause my room looks like a proper bedroom should-messy, yet organised, and very personalised. Woooo!

It's late, and in reality I'm probably writing this to avoiding going to bed. But I really am excited! Think I'll watch some late night TV...

Some photos for my darling readers....

My door-reppin Aus, Lily Allen, Hot Guy, Family Pics, Pics from El etc

Australian Map/Letter, from David!

Unmade Bed, Large Amount of Photos

And Me (looking rather tired), and my lovely Red Armchair

Lots of love xxxx

Oh Comely

Ahhh what a good few weeks these past few have been.

I got older (and 19 actually does feel much older than 18), and had my first birthday in this cold, windy and altogether wondrous country.

I visited Yorkshire for the first time, and stayed in a stately manor of Jane-Austen-Movie-Proportions. I left with a dog, the sweetest dog I've ever met in fact.

I got invited to go and stay again in this amazing manor.

I house sat for a week, which was good for numerous reasons (rest, rest, rest, lots of Friends and Big Brother) but especially because it has made me so glad to have the family back. I love these people.

God blessed me with one of the most memorable birthdays ever, and showed me how He's really making me grow up. I got through the day with no tears, no melancholy sighs, and a natural smile upon my face-I truly enjoyed my birthday.

I'm currently reading Mansfield Park (Jane Austen), and love it. LOVE it.

Fanny Price is fantastic.

And I am really getting super, super excited. Because 1) Curtis and Lucy get back soon, and I have truly missed them so!, 2) Because it is 45 days until Melanie Joy Barker arrives in this country and we set off on the trip we've been planning for nearly 2 years!!! And 3) I have been given the final 10 days of October off to travel with my fellow Wyetarians.

Life, and indeed God is good.

And finally today I had the day off and went into Canterbury in my red coat, feeling rather dapper, and was sung to by one guy, who told me I had beautiful eyes, and stopped by another who was also full of flattery. Creepy? A little. Left me feeling all nice about myself? Indeed.

Judge me not! haha

And as for the name of my current blog, I have hooked onto an amazing magazine of the same name, and am truly truly loving it.

Other highlights of the past week:

Skyping Eleanor Shepherd, and receiving a letter from her.

Realising that our new dog loves me best haha.

Having lunch at Boho-Canterbury's nicer, and better answer for Nowra's Tea Club.

Dancing for about half-an-hour with Silvia in the kitchen.

Having an amazing chat with Tom Wilson.

God.

Being attacked by a 3 year old, or 'Ben 10'

Having dnm with Serena.

Realising how soon October is.

Skyping my family practically every other day.

Falling in love with Sam Pepper off Big Brother.

Making the best Cherry Cake ever.

Now some photos for my lovelies:

Thorp Perrow, where I stayed on my birthday.

Tarka

Cherry Cake nom nom nom

19 y.o. Me.

Lots of love,

Courtney xxxxx

A Blog by a 'Frustrated Soul'.

The worst thing (and something I am quickly and keenly becoming aware of) about being here in this situation is having no one to talk to.

One becomes very aware of how much they talk when there is no longer anyone to talk casually too.

My social world is this one family. This one family, who 6 months ago, I'd never heard of, and 2 months ago, I'd never met.

My closest 'confidantes' don't really seem all that interested in things I have to say (though that may be a little unfair-they do make an effort to include me), don't get my sense of humour, and in reality, just don't really get me.

I have found I have this awful build up which comes from my lack of casual talking. Pretty much everything I say is planned and considered before I say it-everything I say has a point.

A POINT. Since when did I want to talk just because I have to?? Since when have I been a 'strong, thoughtful, silent' type? I mean I'm not saying I'm a vapid air-head; but I do so like to just talk. Is that really so bad-a-thing to want?

This family probably think I'm some weird 'computer-nerdish', 'book-reading', 'long-lonesome-walks' kind of hermit!

Who cares that I now read 3 or 4 books a week? Who cares that I am now extremely well informed of the world of mini-clip? And who bloody-well cares that I am more fit now than I have been for a few years??

None of these things are a comfort to the fact that I sometimes just get SO bored of my own company, that I come down and choose to help with the kids, just for some human company?

Ahhhh it's honestly that frustrating!!

Now please don't think I am depressed, or sad even. This whole blog is meant to have a satirical, frustrated tone to it.

So don't worry about me :)

I'm really writing this because I have nothing better to do.

Love etc to all my faithful readers xxxx